Week 18

Week 18!  4 months down only 2 more to go!  2 more months....seems like a long way to go but I know it will fly by.  Josh did great last week and passed his test.  Thank you Jesus.  The boys and I went to visit him this past weekend since he didnt have time to come home.  I'm very thankful we were able to see him for one night but it was much harder on the boys not having daddy home.  S screamed and threw a fit when we said goodbye.  It was the first time that Josh witnessed S break down and I know it tore his heart apart.  S was crying hysterically and yelling at Josh to come home and not go back to school.  It was a very emotional goodbye for all of us.  I am use to S having these break down moments.  They come every so often when he is really missing his dad but Josh hasnt so I think it really caught him off guard.  He knows the boys miss him and are sad when he leaves but to watch S emotionally loose it was a whole new thing.  With that being said I'm not sure what to do about this weekend.  I dont know what is worse not seeing Josh at all or breaking the boys hearts again when daddy doesnt come home with us again.  On the drive home L was crying, "Me want daddy.  Daddy home." :( How do you explain this to a two year old?  There is no right answer.  I think if the boys skipped a weekend of seeing their dad all together it would be more difficult but I just dont know.  So we will see if we head up there again.  Meanwhile the boys and I are doing fine, yes we miss Josh like crazy but we really are doing ok.  Yesterday we had lots of family and friends in and out of the house which made the day fly by.  We just have to keep hanging in there for a couple more months and then we will have our Man of the house back!  :) Can't wait.  He really is missed around here and very obviously needed.  Sorry for a another short post this week.  Im tired and dont have too much to say.  Just praying for Josh to continue persevering through and the next 2 months to fly by.

With Love,
Trina