Week 7......DONE!

One more week down!  Yay!  What a crazy emotional week.  I have been doing great but this week hit me hard.  This was the first week that I had fear about not making it to graduation day.  Up to this point anyone who has gone home has voluntarily quit.  I know Josh is not going to willingly leave so I had comfort in this....security....but this week was the start of...."if you dont pass you have one more chance and then you could be sent home."  Not a fun feeling...and it's just the beginning.  We have sooooo many more hurdles to jump before graduation day.  I read that more senior cadets were sent home for not passing something....they were 5 weeks away from graduation!  5 weeks left!  And now it is over for them.  Just a reminder that at anytime during this you could be sent home.  It's nothing that I didnt already know going into this.  It's not new news!  It's just that it really hit me this week.  I really thought I was stronger than this.  I thought that my Trust in the Lord was stronger.  This week proved that I have a lot of room to grow.....a lot.  I need to grow because I refuse to worry.  I refuse to not Trust in God.  I refuse to dwell over things I have no control over.  I refuse.  I will not be a person that lives in fear of the unknown.  I just wont!  I am doing a bible study by James MacDonald, Always True: God's promises when life is hard, and it is the perfect study for what I need right now.  One of the women in the study said something that really helped....93% of what we worry about NEVER happens!  How crazy to think all the time wasted on something that doesnt exist.  Sooooo true.  Here I was worried for Josh this week and he didnt even get tested.  It will probably be next week.  All this fear and worrying for nothing!  So I'm taking a deep breath and giving it up now once and for all.  I know Josh is doing his very best and I know God is in complete control.  So there.....I will continue to work on not worrying and truly giving it all up to Him.  :)  The good thing that came from this crazy emotional week was that it motivated me to get out all my fall decor.  Josh is going to be surprised when he walks through the door tonight!  I had a blast redecorating the living room and kitchen.  I was reminded that a lot of my fall decorations were gifts from my mom, which always brings a smile to my face.  I love thinking about her and remembering all the good things about her.  She loved decorating for the seasons.  :)  Life is good.  It's Friday!  Josh should be home in a few hours.  I cant wait!  Praying for a relaxing weekend with the man of my dreams, my amazing Husband.  :)

With Love,
Trina